How to write a book; When facing doubt, just keep writing

For those who are following the progress of my book, I’m at that rewriting phase of “My gosh. Who wrote this crap? I hate this so much! I want to quit.” Seriously, why in the world am I doing this to myself?
I don’t need to write a book. I can sit back and watch America’s Got Talent everyday and then flip the channel and make fun of politics. I have no clue why I’m writing a book. I’m sure at some point I enjoyed this, right? Someone remind me that I actually enjoyed writing, because I’m at the point of chasing people around with chainsaws and getting lost in hedge mazes. 
I know I do like writing. I just need to remember rewriting can be difficult. I mean, how many times can you read a book over and over before you get sick of it? Well, that sometimes applies to your own books as well. Especially when you have to read one sentence a hundred times, then you realize that it doesn’t work in the story anyway. That can become frustrating, but it’s a perfectly normal feeling (having the urge to drink is also normal, at least for me it is). 
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The hard part I’m facing is, this rewrite is going to take me much longer than I expected and I will need at least one more personal rewrite before I can send it to an editor. I’m not looking forward to that last rewrite. I can see me facing tons of self doubt and it won’t be pretty. I’m pretty sure there will be tears. I don’t cry the pretty TV tears. Nope. I have the red puffy eyes, swollen face, and snot running down my nose. When I cry, it’s an ugly cry. 
It’s no secret I also suffer from occasional bouts of blues, depression, anxiety, frustration, grey hair, stinky feet, and severe doubt in my personal abilities to do anything great. To be fair, if a person survived almost 50 years of living on this rock, raised a few kids, and survived a few divorces, without gaining a few mental diagnoses they weren’t trying hard enough (I just happen to have more than a few, but that’s for a different conversation). 
Now, don’t get me wrong, most of the time I actually have a strong sense of self worth and a bigger feeling of self confidence, but there are those times when I know this is all a dream (or nightmare) and the world will fall out from under me and find out none of this was real. I wake up and I’ve been living in a mental facility the whole time. Yes, I know. That’s a pretty specific fear, but the way TV portrays mental facilities, it’s a pretty rational fear. 
The crazy part is, in both my fabulous careers, I succeeded in everything I set out to do. I’m very critical of myself and I work very hard. At every step of the way, in spite of my anxieties and fears, I won many awards and made some great memories. But I always have this little voice telling me that it could be all a mistake and I’m not really good enough. (I really hope I’m not the only one who feels this way sometimes. I would feel so much better if I knew others suffer from anxiety and self doubt. It would be really good to know I’m not the only one who is slightly off balanced.) 
Before becoming a writer, I could hide these self confidence issues. I could plaster on my smile, pull my shoulders back, grab a cup of coffee, and prepare myself to tackle the day (Hiding in the bathroom from time to time to face the fact the world out there is willing to crush me like a little bug). 
When I decided to write, I found out writers are vulnerable to the public. I didn’t want strangers judging me for my shortcomings, while they were hiding behind their keyboards. I wanted to be remain nameless and unknown.  I almost quit before I even started. 
Now, I’m writing a blog, I fight against injustice, and I’m writing a book. How? I took a look at all my anxieties and instead of avoiding them, I looked those damn anxieties in the face, grabbed them by the neck, squeezed them like a shampoo bottle the day before payday. I made them into a bubble bath and jumped my butt right in a tub full of my anxieties. I wanted to keep them close and control them. The crazy part of trying to control something, sometimes it still tries to act out. Even after years of success, in many different fields, my mind still questions my abilities. 
After writing a few chapters, I look in the mirror and wonder, “Why in the world did I ever think this writing thing was a good idea?”
 
It may be a few years before I ever write another book. I’ll need time to recover from this personal beating I’ve given myself and I’ll probably need some serious therapy after this book is published (Yes. I know I need therapy now, but that’s besides the point). 
But no matter what, I’ll keep plowing forward and so help me I will finish what I started.
That’s the most important thing. If you face even a little of what I go through, don’t quit. You are allowed to acknowledge the pain and the agony of putting yourself out to the world, but don’t let those feelings paralyze you. 
 
If you are writing a book, you have to stick with it. Don’t let doubt get you down and Writing - Self Doubtconvince you to quit. Telling a story isn’t something that happens overnight. When you want to hit delete or toss the whole thing out, take a break, get some coffee, stretch, and breath. This is a marathon, not a sprint. We need to breath and take water breaks. The time is not important but sticking it out and finishing is. When you body wants to collapse from pain, your arms are weak, and your brain tells you to quit, don’t listen. Keep going. When your brain tells you no one will judge you if you drop out right now, don’t listen. Keep going. Keep typing and keep writing. You can do this. I can do this and you can do this. We can do this. 
I promise this, if readers don’t like my book, it won’t be for lack of trying. I’m pouring my heart and soul into this book. I’m going down the rabbit hole and I’m taking the readers with me.
 
In all the craziness and pain, I will bring you stories of survival and happiness. I hope you will laugh and cry with me. This is why I will keep writing. I don’t want to tell you what I’m writing, I want you to read what I’m writing. I will continue to write, no matter how many times the black dog barks at my heels, and no matter how many times doubt enters my mind, I will keep writing. 
I want you to keep writing too. 
I know it’s hard, but no matter what, never quit. Just keep writing. 
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Until next time…be safe, be kind, and always be happy.
(and of course, when I’m done, you need to buy my book.)  

How to keep kids safe while playing Pokemon-Go – The Ten Commandments of Pokemon Go

The Ten Commandments of Pokemon Go 

  1. You shall only play one app game at a time. Playing different apps at the same time can be dangerous. If you are playing Pokemon Go, do not stretch your attention by playing another game at the same time.
  2. Do not bow your head over your phone while walking across the roads or in traffic areas. Pay attention to your surroundings. The drivers of vehicles are jealous drivers and they want your full attention when you are crossing their paths. Remember, roads and cars are real. You are real. Pokeman are not. You can really die, Pokemon cannot.
  3. If you don’t play, do not talk badly against those who play. If you do play, don’t talk badly about your fellow players. Everyone likes different games. That’s just not nice. Don’t ruin the fun for others. Show kindness and respect so we can all continue to have fun. Also, if you find someone who doesn’t have a phone to play with, don’t speak unkindly about them, invite them to join your social group, and let them come along for the adventure.
  4. Remember you do have other things to do in real life, so take time away from playing your games, and get your real work done. Do not ignore real friendships, chores, or real life work to chase Pokemon. Have fun, but take a break when needed to tend to real life activities.
  5. Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long. Do not, under any circumstance, leave your home, go Pokemon hunting, or go into a dangerous area without telling your parents. This goes for the adults too. Do not go out hunting in the dark or in dangerous areas without telling someone where you are. Do not drop a lure if you are alone or in a strange place. Instead of hunting alone or at night, play at home and use incense to bring the Pokemon to you.
  6. You shall not hurt or kill other players or go to places which may get you killed. Your family wants you home safe, so never go anywhere alone or dangerous. Always keep an eye on your surroundings and use common sense when hunting Pokemon.
  7. You shall not cheat on your teammates or your group. If your team or group has decided when and where to play and how to divide up the Pokemon which are found, be sure to follow the rules of the group. There will be no cheating on your team or group’s rules. Cheating on your teammates is just bad sportsmanship. Don’t do it.
  8. Do not steal Legendary Pokemon from other players (or anything else for that matter). If you see someone already playing in their yard or other areas and they were there first, do not steal their chance at fun. Plus, when people are playing in the park, they tend to leave their personal items around. Do not steal these items. If it isn’t yours, don’t touch it.
  9. Do not lie on your teammates or other players. Play nice and everyone will have fun.
  10. Do not trespass on your neighbor or covet their Pokemon. If you see a Pokemon in someone’s yard or closed off business, do not covet that Pokemon. That Pokemon belongs to that person and if you wish to capture it, you should use your incense to lure it to you, but to not trespass onto someone’s land.

The final commandment of playing Pokemon Go is always play nice.

“Do unto others what you would have them do unto you.”

(Yes, that is directly from the Bible, but it’s a good rule to live by in any instance, even when playing Pokemon Go.)

Now, go forth and multiply… your combat power and candy of course!

Until next time…be safe, be kind, and always be happy.

PS: Remember adults, these rules apply to you too.